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My GPS Is MalFunctioning!

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Ginger Goss is an amazing woman whose life shines as a testimony of her relationship with Jesus.  She has many gifts and serves the Lord with trust and humility. One of her gifts is that she can write.  I am honored to get to share her words with you. I know you will be blessed by her today! – Cindy Grasso

My GPS is malfunctioning! And so my panic began…

Getting lost when I’m alone throws me into high anxiety. So when car GPS systems came out, imagine my exhilaration. I was almost as excited as when I drink that first fresh, strong, steaming cup of coffee in the morning… not quite, but almost.

That is until last week when driving back from Bonita, I heard it say “follow the road until further instructed.” Uhhh what??? My GPS is malfunctioning!  And so my panic began. I don’t know where I am. What if I can’t get back home? What if I run out of gas? What if my car breaks down? “What if, what if, what if, what if, what if” drummed on and on through my head.  Never mind that I had personal and work cell phones in my possession both of which had GPS that I could’ve used and yet, sadly, that never even crossed my mind. Panic took over and my common sense got hurled out the window.

With each moment of passing time, my anxiety grew exponentially.

It was in that panicked moment when my GPS had repeated “follow the road until further instructed” for about the tenth and I was nearing my breaking point that my heavenly Father spoke to my heart “Shhhh… My daughter, It’s OK. Shhh…Be at peace… Be still. You may not know how to get home, but I doDeep breath. Relax. Enjoy the journey. Notice the beauty around you while I lead you home.”  And in a moment, somewhere on a Southwest Florida road I felt God wrap me in His arms and draw me close. The panic left and His peace replaced my fear.

In an instant, His whisper had pierced deep into my being. You see, that lost panicky feeling describes my state of mind all too frequently over the last few years. It’s been a season of not knowing pretty much anything. It’s left me feeling unsure, fearful, anxious,  lost and most definitely UN-instructed. It’s been a time of actively stating out loud “I CHOOSE not to worry. I CHOOSE to trust You. I KNOW You know our needs. I KNOW You know our struggles. NOTHING that is happening to me or my family is a surprise to YOU. So whatever has happened, is happening, or is yet to happen, You have already promised it will turn out for my GOOD.”

Many of us have probably heard or read a sign quoting Jeremiah 29:11 “I know the plans I have for you … plans for good and not disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” And…we stop with that. We’ve cherry-picked what we like to hear and often miss the rest of it. It actually reads:

“This is what the Lord says: ‘You will be in BABYLON for SEVENTY years. BUT then I will come and do for you ALL the good things I have PROMISED, and I will bring you HOME again. For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for GOOD and NOT for disaster, to GIVE you a future and a hope. In those days WHEN YOU PRAY, I will listen.

IF you look for me WHOLEHEARTEDLY, you will find Me. I will be found by you,” says the Lord. “I will END your captivity and RESTORE your fortunes. I will gather you out of the nations where I sent you and will bring you home again to your own land.’”

Jeremiah‬ ‭29:10-14‬ ‭NLT‬‬

It isn’t a passive statement and it requires action on my part. It requires me to PRAY, to trust Him, and to seek Him with ALL my heart.

I won’t lie. It’s not easy for me.

I’ve always been a capable person, which is probably why I’ve made this season even more difficult for myself (Ugh). I want to rely on my own abilities, my own strength, and my own fortitude. Which is probably why He lead me away from my comfort zone and placed me smack dab in the middle of internal captivity. He’s teaching me TRUST IN HIM  and not myself.

As things appear to be out of control, often I find myself sternly telling my mirror “He’s been faithful in my past. He’s faithful in my present. THEREFORE, He will be faithful in my future. It’s not what I can do it’s what He can do through me.”

As I make the intentional decision to trust Him and not myself or my abilities, His divine creativity has amazed me over and over again in ways that I never dreamed. Slowly, my anxiety and worry are being replaced with faith and trust. With each moment of passing time, I am learning to “wait until further instructed.”

My spiritual GPS isn’t malfunctioning. He’s still working. And I’m learning to be at peace and to see the beauty that’s in this “uninstructed” journey.

Beloved daughter, God knows where you are and knows how to get you where He wants you to be (which is less about a destination and more about an internal atmosphere of trust in Him).

And you can trust Him.

He loves you. 

by Ginger Goss

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